Random thoughts on a dark rainy night, the Rhône and Lyon lights from my window...

Why don't I write as much as I was in India? Well, I'm not sure, life has incredibly slowed down, my heart beats at a slower rate and somehow I feel as my mind is full of crap and nothing new and interesting is going on. I was in Italy again last weekend...I really feel happy there! There is nothing to do, the friends I have there are some of the most precious jewels in my life. And time in Parma seems to never pass. Getting off the train, the usual train station, the usual street until my house, ringing at the doorbell, "it's me!", my confortable big house, my mom's hugs, my sister's sweetness, my celphone ringing, going out everynight until very late without noticing, without doing anything special but just feeling good, hanging with friends...ah, they were really beautiful days! One night we went out to the "Fuori Orario". God, hadn't been in that club since I was 17!! I found out a new wave of italian folk music that is really fun to listen to and dance, with text pretty politically involved, and my friends knew every single word by hert!!! We danced there until in closed, there were a lot of alternative people, pretty pretty boys, a lot of them like my kind of boys (which every girlfriend i have says: "good luck we have different tastes!")...i wouldn't know how to describe them, there is just something in their look and their attitude...but of course look is not everything;) But France doesn't offer this beauty!
In those days I have been a bit disappointed of France (not only because of boys!). Two months here and I don't have any French "friend". Of course I met many people, got phone numbers and everything, but I just haven't connected with any frenchie. God, I was doing better in India!! And I'll see Adi (one of my indian friends) next week!!! Par contre I have met some cool people, some international travel crazy with whom I match really well, and mostly a crowd of crazy italians with whom I have some of the craziest times and we have soooo much fun!! I know that in the study abroad experience I shouldn't hang out with people from my country, but I never get to hang out with italians!!! The other night we were going to a bar after hanging at one of the guys apartment. On the way to the bar (about an hour walking) we were singing old italian songs walking around Lyon, stopping people and talking to them, didn't mind to get all the attention;) Then once in front of the bar the bouncer didn't let us in because he said that one of us looked tired. No other reason. We were more girls than guys, we were well dressed...it got me so mad! My opinion is that we were speaking italian and the guy didn't like us because of the world cup, but if that's the reason it would be so stupid!! Than we went to another bar and Peppe, one of the guys, was really mad and start talking bad about france. Well, the usual luck! There was a big french guy who spoke very well italian who got really mad and basically kicked us out of the bar. After that I went home, it wasn't our night!
Then I'm just disappointed at the whole university system. So much unuseful bureocracy, people just don't do their job and you have to always go in offices, ask ask and ask again, check urself on the huge amount of paper on their desks (they haven't discovered computers yet and how more practical they are!). My dad is making fun of Mizzou because we already have the schedule for next semester. Isn't that wonderful? ORGANIZATION!! And then professors have been annoying me a bit. Too much bullshitting, always late, always dressed with a suit and a tie, a professional attire but such an unprofessional attitude! They talk about themselves too much, about unuseful stuff. We waste time in 6 hours long classes, doing maybe only 3 hours of class. Wouldn't it be so much more efficient to just start off right away and leave 3 hours earlier?
Well, it's just one of those week. I am seriously looking forward for the weekend and next week. On Saturday my friend Yvon from the Netherlands is coming to visit me. She was an exchange student in high school in a little town in Missouri close to where I was and her, my best friend Ivana from Montenegro and I used to hang out a lot. I haven't seen her in 3 years and it will be awesome to hang out with her again! Even if on Saturday morning my stupid supid finance professor scheduled a class cause he has to leave for 2 weeks and we need to cover more material before the exam! Ahhh, and he"s so ignorant! First of all, it's a class thought in english and his english is like mine when I was 10 (aka absolutely horrible!) but then he's slow, he doesn't answer to questions, just goes around and cuts off sentences cause he doesn't know how to continue! And let's talk about my marketing research TA! such a skytzophrenic!! Writes on the board and speaks at an obnoxious speed, writes number and erases them right after, goes from one thought to the other with no connection and when we complain that he's going too fast he just yells at us and says we need to study. Oh god, how much I love relaxed and chilled teachers!
But anyways, after Yvon leaves I have a french exam and a french exposition (should be easy) and a finance exam (which shouldn't be too hard). Then a kick ass party where the Olympic Lyonnaise (Lyon football team) will be there, and if Florent Malouda is gonna be there I'm gonna pee in my pants...the hottest player (à mon avi!) in the world cup! After the party, flight to Seville where I'll meet with a bunch of people! Stephanie of course (I'm sooo happy! my chinese sister;), Adi (India) and Marjolein (Netherlands), and also Raul (my travel buddy madrileno!!). It will be awesome! When I come back there is a quesion mark: either Hardy (my german friend with whom I lived in India, one of those guys who I love to death! a really really good friend) will come to Paris or I'll fly to Berlin. Ah, after India traveling is the best thing to make me feel happy and alive!
I feel as life is an escavanture hunt: we're all looking for the "treasure", the answer, nirvana, beauty, god, happiness, love, success, whatever people look for. And we just find little hints here and there, which make us keep going and look forward for what's next. My hints are in the heart of friends around the world, and in diversity of people, realities, culture...cannot live without that!

People, I need more feedbacks! I feel as nobody reads my bullshit anymore and if that's the case I'll go back to the old style diary! I need a good book tonight, not the marketing case study I have to do! I need to meet awesome french people, I need boys to tell me they have girlfriends and not just avoiding the detail (it somehow always happens to me!), and I need to stop complaining, life is beautiful and I'm a lucky girl! People make me happy, thank you people;)

Biz;) Bonne nuit